anger...

anger...
it's so very difficult to deal with, well for someone of us it is.
why?
as much as i hate to be the stereotype, i cannot cope with feeling two things about someone at once.  i cannot manage loving (or liking) someone and being angry at them.  i cannot manage the paradox of feelings, i cannot handle the ambivilence.  i split, they are good or bad.  there is no grey area, only dichotomy, black or white.
maybe some day i will manage the middle...i hope so, living in a world of extremes is terrifying, there is no consistency.  there is no image of a whole person, everyone is two people.  no one can be trusted and you most importantly, cannot trust yourself.